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1. Growing up, all I wanted to do was play videogames, collect worms, and play baseball with my little brother and dad in the street.
2. I used to film my friend and I dancing and random skits as a kid. We would set up a camera and choreograph dances to try and make a music video. We, at one point, performed a dance in our elementary school’s talent show.
3. I wasn’t the nicest kid growing up and most definitely wasn’t a great friend. I had and still have a lot of insecurities and because of it, I would be mean to a lot of people :/
4. I can swim – well, could – but haven’t in so long that I’m really scared I forgot how to so I don’t swim. I also choose not to swim because I really don’t like people seeing me in a bikini (self-insecurities thing).
5. I wear my heart on my sleeve and love way too much (if that’s possible). Now that may seem like “Oh yea, that’s a lot of people” – well, I am also really blunt and upfront about the way I feel a lot of the time and so I tend to just blurt out my feelings and it can hurt depending on their response. I believe in that Disney shit way too much.
6. I think my hips are double jointed.
7. I’m a bit of a hypochondriac. Whenever I read about some illness that may show symptoms of whatever I have, I immediately go into freak-out mode and assume I have whatever illness it is, even though it’s most likely just a cold or something. Also, when I was a kid I didn’t go to school for a month because I thought I had been terminally ill with stomach pains that I couldn’t walk or eat properly. I had a ton of tests done and a couple hundred or thousands of dollars later, I was completely fine. There had been literally nothing wrong with me. I just thought I was ill.
8. I don’t like eating anything from the ocean/sea/water (except for Tuna – occasionally). I just have some weird “nono” factor in my head. I’m also worried I’m allergic for some reason.
9. I have a crush on Luke Skywalker. Always have, always will. Can we just look at this man for a second? Pure glory.
10. I was a hula hoop master in elementary school. (Or so I thought). I used to hula hoop 10 at the same time.
11. I have a hard time falling asleep without something or someone touching me (as in up against me like a pillow, teddy bear, or just cuddling).
12. I used to braid my hair or slick it back in a ponytail back in elementary school because I didn’t like my hair and wanted to be like one of the boys.
13. I’m really scared of rejection and only want to please people.
14. I used to think that fish could breathe in water and out so I would take them out of the fish tank and pet them for a second or two and then place them back into the water… I don’t even know.
15. I absolutely love Lord of The Rings. Everything about it is perfect to me.

Everything in life is the way it is because we perceive it to be that way. If a certain group of people are classified as “popular” because they look a certain way or act a certain way, why not see each of them as they really individually are instead of allowing them to be perceived in a silly cliche society tends to brand others with.

There’s no reason to go against the current of life to try and gain such acceptance from others. They need to learn to accept you as you are and if they don’t, they aren’t worth a moment of your time.

No one should determine who you get to be or how you get to be. You need to be you, to strive to better yourself for you, and to shine as you and only you. We all change throughout our lives. Whether its physically, mentally, emotionally – it happens. You will constantly learn more about yourself each day and you need to make sure your eyes are open wide enough to understand and accept yourself for who you are. And with every change, explore it, strengthen it, and better you entirely.

We tend to want to be accepted by those we care for most, the people around us that we hold close. That’s fine, but never change a certain way just to get that acceptance. They should accept you for who you are and if they don’t, perhaps they’re not the right people for you to spend your time with.

It may sound silly, but we all need to learn to accept ourselves for who we are and stop worrying about societies opinions. Once you do so, you need to strive to truly be the best you. And please, don’t ever forget to be awesome, in your special way.

Back in 2012, Carrie Hope Fletcher, also known as It’sWayPastMyBedTime, posted a video discussing how she wants her funeral to be like and it got me thinking. She made a lot of points that I feel are fantastic ideas so definitely check out her video.

Now, death naturally is a sad thing. Loosing anyone in your life or someone you love will almost always be hard, but to me, each and every person that passes should be, in a sense, celebrated.

So for my funeral, I have a little plan for anyone that may attend. First and foremost, let’s toss the word “funeral”. When I go, it’s going to be a little gathering, a party if you will. Not in celebration that I am dead, but in celebration of the life I lived and the connections I had with each and every person that was in my life.

When I pass, I really don’t want my lifeless bod to just lay in a casket underground, it just sounds, Bleh. Instead, I would really like to have my body cremated and set into a little lovely case/jar thing that can’t just shatter if dropped because that would just be bad…

Now for the little party/service. I’d love for everyone to enjoy beautiful weather (hopefully) on a hill that overlooks the ocean. I don’t really have a specific location picked out so perhaps a beach close to my home or something. I want everyone to be together and partying in some way. Regardless, everyone needs to enjoy drinks, delicious food, and fun happy music while being together, dancing, partying and just being happy regardless to my passing.

Everyone that attends my little “party” MUST wear happy colors and clothes that make them feel beautiful inside and out. I want everyone to show up with smiles and just happy and good energy all around. We want positive vibes people, positive!

Then when the sun starts to set, those who would like to can speak on my behalf, share funny and crazy stories and just all together remember me. But when they do remember me, I would like all to remember the happy and good parts of my life. As Carrie said in her video, I want everyone to remember me in my prime. If I passed from sickness or had sickness during my life, look past those times and see the good, the happy and best times of my life, most of which I’m sure include those I love.

Then as the sun begins to fully set, the sky breathtaking, the breeze calm, I want everyone to take a moment of silence and take in the beauty that surrounds them. And as they do, someone take my little jar of me and carefully spill out my remains over the hill, allowing the wind to, in a sense, take me. Again, carefully, there’s a whole lot of wrong that could go on. We don’t want bits of me in so and so’s mouth. That’s just scary for said person.

Once my little me jar is empty (and for my loved ones, if they want they can take some of my ash and keep it someway so that I’m with them always), I want everyone to look toward the ocean, taking in the beauty that I always love to admire, and as the wind twirls around everyone, I want them to think of me as the wind, surrounding them with positive energy, hugging them and always there if they need me.

At the spot I’m “released” if my loved ones would like, a tombstone that says my name, years, and a little quote that is still to be determined. That way for any who need a specific spot to go to to talk to me, they can go to that stone and speak to me while being surrounded by nature and beauty with the powerful and amazing ocean stretched out in front of them.

That may sound sort of weird. Yes, that was weird. But it’s just something and how I’d like to have my “funeral”/party to go whenever that time comes for me.

Unless I’m immortal… ;)

This was the first time my dog had ever seen snow and was able to play in it. Boy did he have so much fun! I immediately went and grabbed a camera to film it and figured it’d be adorable to put everything together to look back on and share with my family. For anyone curious, he’s a pit bull (I believe also mixed with a bit of Mastiff) and it just a little over 2 years old in this. This was filmed near Charlotte, NC in the middle of February. He ate a lot of snow that day and absolutely loved every minute of prancing around in the snow :)

Filmed with Canon EOS 60D
Filmed and Edited by Grayson
(With some filming help from Ty Moss – http://youtube.com/tysiphonehelp)

Music by Scott & Brendo – https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/somewhere-instrumental/id610857210?i=610858607

Sorry if it’s a bit rocky, I don’t have any rigs to help stabilize – just using the magic of my hands ;) and I’m definitely not a professional nor think I am in cinematography, though I do plan to get better! I hope you enjoyed this and thank you for watching.

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I’m a girl born and raised from New Jersey born on November 23, ’92. I film most of my videos on this channel with the Canon EOS 60D and edit with iMovie or Final Cut Pro X (Depending on the video). I’m definitely a perfectionist. My life is on the internet and I talk to a camera. I’m a gamer, writer, lover, fighter, geek, animal-lover, and a complete dork. I have a passion for everything I do and I strive to do it well. My name is Grayson and in some way, I can change your life. ✌

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Perhaps you don’t like people looking through your phone or your computer? I just don’t like people looking through my stuff or at my personal things that I have in “my room” for some strange reason, and boy am I learning that! Do you have anything you’re like that with? Or am I just the weird one? I hope you’re having a glorious day filled with rainbows, unlimited amount of cookies and unicorns (unlimited…) I know I am! They’re such beautiful creatures. I have one here with me that I just named Nancy. He’s pretty spectacular. Yeah, I’m soo good at naming things aren’t I? I mean, how epic is the name “PirateGray” right? So much win.

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