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A new year has begun, 2015 is here to stay (until next year). By this time, you may be sick of hearing other’s new years resolutions, possibly already slacking with your “get in shape” goal and what not. Don’t worry, this isn’t a post that’ll make you want to gouge your eyes out (hopefully) with resolutions and what not so read on good reader, read on.
It seems as we get older, time moves rapidly and years pass by within a blink of the eye. If you think about it, every day is just another day where the sun rises and sets over the Earth, life begins and ends. But come January 1st, we as humans view a new year as a new beginning. Most of us see it as a reset, a fresh start and so we begin again, continuing life with a refreshed approach to each year hoping it ends up better than the last. (Unless of course you had one kick-ass previous year and it may seem impossible to achieve a much better year, right on!)
Most people make lists of goals to reach throughout the year and let’s be honest, they end up being half assed or forgotten. Why? Half the time it’s a lack of motivation, we lose ambition or just end up getting too busy with other things. Life happens and that’s okay.
So what can we do to ensure we have a good year and achieve goals? How does one approach a new year ‘hitting the ground running’?
Don’t plan for anything other than self-growth, prune out the negative, and say yes more often.
Now I’m not saying to not have goals, goals are great to have, but don’t go in telling yourself “Oh I want to do this, I want to do that”, go in saying “I will do this. I will do that”. What you do with your life is completely determined by you and your approach.
Something that I’m still learning is not everything will go as planned. You can spend hours, days, weeks, months, years planning for something and come the time of it actually happening, it will most likely not go exactly as planned. It’s fine for you to have
The cold that’s occurring here is awfully, well, cold, but I absolutely love when it snows around this time of year. I’m currently visiting family back home in New Jersey and within the first few days of being here, there was a light snowfall. Of course, my ass was out bright and early snapping some photos. Here are a few of my favorites, along with the full album below :)
Depression is hard to simply explain. Depression is something that casts a dark cloud that will block any view that may be ahead. It will consume your mind, your each breath and drain you of any energy you once had. Depression throws you down a deep dark tunnel with no food, water, barely any air to breathe and closes off the only exit with a mountain of darkness leaving you no escape. It will have you feeling as though you’re the only person on an island far from civilization. And I’m not talking some sweet get-away island. I’m talking a place where it’s constantly cold, dark, rainy and horrid.
Living with depression is something that I wish no one ever had to do. As someone who lives with it, I know how hard each day can be. For years, I have had no drive, no vision of anything in my life. I have absolutely no clue what may be before me for this cloud has consumed me and doesn’t allow me to see ahead. And once you slip into this dark hole, it’s hard to hold yourself up, and extremely hard to come completely out of it. There are days, there will always be days, that are good where you can laugh and smile but then there are days that are awful leaving you curled up in your bed wanting to die.
When you see others happy and out living, you can’t understand why you feel so drained and weighed down, unable to get up, move, and be happy too. Laughing at little things is a difficult without faking it. Genuinely smiling from happiness seems foreign and it’s not something you choose. Sure, you can tell yourself to be happy and smile but with depression inside, everything, every thought, every breathe, you’re hearing things that tell you otherwise. “You’re pathetic, there’s nothing good about you, no one really loves you, why are you even breathing…”
Love is a truly beautiful thing. There are so many types of love, it grows in so many different ways, hits you at the most random times, and swoops you off your feet in a matter of seconds. Here’s a beautiful story of a time I encountered my first love while on a vacation with my parents and family. Let me tell you the story of my first love.
The oceans mist brushed across my face as the wind picked up, blowing my hair wildly. My fingers wrapped around the bannister of the hotel balcony as I gazed out toward the ocean. I’m finally here. An escape from reality and time to just be me. No responsibilities, no worries. The sun was beginning to set due west, casting a gorgeous light across the sandy beaches and ocean beyond. Relaxation mode, engage.
In the distance, I could hear skateboards heading in my direction. I looked over to see two boys skating towards the park, a distance away to my left. One of them glanced up, catching my eye and slowed down as he came near the balcony. I was only up a tiny distance from the street, being on the first floor, so we had a clear view of one another. He smiled up at me as the second boy slowed down, following the firsts gaze up at me. They walked passed with their boards in hand toward the park and both smiled up to me. I blushed, smiling back, then looked back towards the ocean as they passed. A breeze picked up, giving me a chill and I returned inside my families hotel room. My parents were unpacking and getting ready for a night out with the rest of our family that were staying at the hotel with us. This was the one time throughout the year we all were able to get together, the one time
While shopping around NorthLake Mall here in NC, I decided to stop into Yankee Candle as I recently received two wax warmers for Christmas. Excited, I rushed in and started going smelling crazy. The man in there was extremely helpful and helped me find quite a few different scents to try out. Here are some of the ones I ended up purchasing, though I know I’ll be going back to buy a few more or multiple of my favorites soon!
For those of you who don’t know about these adorable little guys, they’re Yankee Candle wax tarts. You can burn these in electric or candle lit wax warmers (NOT candle warmers that warm up candles). They’re awesome to have an I’m so excited to have two now in my life. These little wax guys can burn for up to 8 hrs of fragrance.
I’m currently burning/melting – I’m not quite sure what the verb is, but I’m doing it – Golden Sands in my bedroom and Sun and Sand in my kitchen. I also purchased Orange Dreamsicle for my boyfriend but I’m not an orange kind of girl.
I’ll be honest, as of right now I’m not crazy about Golden Sands, but just from looking at my little collection, I know I’ll like a lot of these no matter what. I mostly got a lot of beachy-type scents. I absolutely love everything about the beach thus, want to be reminded of it while I’m so far away from it.
As I may update my little collection and purchase new tarts/waxes, you’ll most likely notice a theme. I like to keep scents very soft, clean, and natural/nature like in my house and in general. I’m excited to discover new scents that I love.
Oh, and I’ll probably end up buying larger candles of the scents I really love. I’m excited!
The first day to a new year which I was incredibly lucky to spend with some of my family. 2013 was a rough year for all of us and there are some rough battles to get through with some deep scars that may never heal…
In 2013, my family lost the greatest man we know; an amazing father, husband, friend, brother, and all around person. I feel like every time I mention my dad, people assume I’m pulling out the “dad passed away” card for sympathy points (which sounds absolutely awful to even say) but sincerely, he has affected me in so many ways throughout my life and thus, his passing was incredibly hard on me. Out of everyone in my family, I feel like he was the only person who really understood me and that I could connect to on a much deeper level
There’s been a lot going on in my life. More so that I’m dealing with mentally and emotionally on top of personal situations. I know there isn’t an excuse as to why I haven’t been posting videos – I’ll explain everything in a video eventually once I build up my confidence to do so.
I lost my dad back in July and since then I’ve been having a really hard time coming to terms with everything that’s currently going on in my life. He was the one person in my life that I truly looked up to and went to whenever I needed help or guidance. He understood me on a level not many can and ever will. So it’s been incredibly hard, especially in a time when I feel I need the most guidance about a lot of things that are going on within my life and mind. Thus, I’ve been regressing and curling into a shell that I’ve been forming over the last three years for other reasons and it’s just not good. I know most of this may not make sense and I’m just babbling at this point, but I hope that in some way you can understand. I don’t think I’d be in such a great place if it weren’t for some amazing people, you, who support me and remind me of who I am. So thank you.
For those of you who watch my personal videos, things are going to be changing along with me. I know I haven’t posted in a while, but it’ll hopefully be worth it once I am able to feel remotely put together to record a video. Thank you for supporting me through everything, putting up with my weird ways, and being so patient as I make my way through this path in my life. Thank you.
There has been a lot going on in my life right now. Almost 2 months ago, my dad passed away. Losing someone you love and someone who was your father your entire life is absolutely horrible. It’s something that will take a lot of time to get through and honestly time doesn’t heal; time only numbs me.
My dad had been in the hospital numerous times within his life, but within the past two years, he had lived in a hospital or rehab center longer than he had been out. Living in the hospital for months because of his health. My dad fought for 69+ years, he would have been 70 this year, to live and keep going but unfortunately, his body couldn’t handle anymore and it was his time.
Though I’m on the internet and post pretty often, there’s still so much you may not know about me. Well, there’s definitely a lot you just can’t learn about a person through the internets. So I felt it’d be fun to post some facts about myself so you can get to know me a bit better! It’d be awesome to read about YOU as well, so post some facts about yourself in the comments or feel free to make a video telling me your facts and make it a video response to my “7 Facts About Me” video :D
Let’s dive in!
1. Growing up, all I wanted to do was play videogames, collect worms, and play baseball with my little brother and dad in the street.
2. I used to film my friend and I dancing and random skits as a kid. We would set up a camera and choreograph dances to try and make a music video. We, at one point,
I always see people changing themselves to fit in with crowds, to try and be what people classify as “popular” and or try to find ways to get attention from others. Why? I can understand some of the reasonings but ultimately, why? Why change who you are to get a better social status among those who think they’re so high and mighty? Don’t let them decide who you get to be.
Everything in life is the way it is because we perceive it to be that way. If a certain group of people are classified as “popular” because they look a certain way or act a certain way, why not see each of them as they really individually are instead of allowing them to be perceived in a silly cliche society tends to brand others with.